Every week, we collect anonymous entries sent in using the link on our sidebar and post them all on Monday. We post anything as long as it doesn't contain personal attacks or hate speech. Feel free to submit your thoughts and questions :)
Not much to say, y'all. I'm finishing up a post on pride flags and such (because I'm now in charge of them), so keep an eye out for that. Use the link in the sidebar on the right to have a flag installed. I'm, like, the best at it. We ordered something like a hundred this year, and they're all free, so all you have to do is sign up and get all of your friends to sign up. So simple.
Anonymous posts, yo.
I'm a UNC student, and I wanted to let you know that I loved the Duke float at NC Pride last weekend and really wish I had gone over to meet some of you... I can't make it to Fab Fridays because of a schedule conflict this semester but hopefully i'll be able to meet some of you next semester!
I don't want to graduate alone, and from the way things are looking, that's what's going to happen. I've had girlfriends, and I have another girlfriend this year, but I am still alone. And I'm alone because I'm gay, and I have no one to tell. Maybe it's kinda much to say, but I just fucking crave being able to touch and hold someone I'm actually attracted to, someone I can care about and actually be with the way I need to be with him. You'd think for all of the shit I do with my girl it would satisfy me, but it doesn't, and I feel like a dick for wanting so much more than everything's she's tried to give me. But there's nothing she can do and there's no way she'd ever know that. I'm just pissed off at myself and alone and mad that I basically dug my own grave here at Duke and chose to be like this rather than come out with it already. Four whole fucking years and look how far I've come. I envy all of you with the flags and this blog.. it's amazing stuff, and I'm sad to say I'll never be a part of it. But I do see you guys, and I know you're out there and all of the good stuff you're doing, and that sort of makes me feel better.
Have people seen this? It's amazing how the people interviewed could be from the present...interesting how people in the 70s were so similar today and poignant how many people still feel need to be closeted, or whatever (like me!). But hopefully this documentary will help give me the power to come to terms with things.
I finally mustered up enough courage to go to Fab Friday and then afterwards at dinner a friend approached me and asked "Hey [this guy] said he saw you at some gay party today." Caught completely off guard, and not ready to come out to one of my closest friends I merely mumbled a "It wasn't a party," and felt awkward all throughout dinner and the evening. I hope [this guy] reads this and realizes that not everyone who goes to events hosted by the Center is out and that he should really try to keep from outing others to their friends. I hate how I'm continuously being forced into situations like this. I'm not sure I'll go to another Center event until I'm out to my friend... it might be a while. =/