December 24, 2011

Christmastime in the Closet?

A very merry Christmas eve to everyone! Hopefully this post finds all of you well and enjoying the winter break.

My break has been dominated with decorating. For Christians, the Christmas season is a quiet time to decorate and prepare your house (and thus symbolically, your heart) for the coming of Jesus on Christmas day. Decorating (physically and symbolically) is a big deal. It's public, and it gives us the chance to show what we can be at our very best. We take the best parts of our lives and put them on display for all to see. But I, like many of you, haven't been able to "decorate" properly this year. I haven't come out to my mom yet, so whenever I'm around her I can't bring out the best parts of my life and show them to her - I have to censor and hide anything about my life that has anything to do with the LGBT community, leaving my conversations with her decorated with second-rate stories and half-truths. I haven't ever been able to show my mom what I can be at my very best.

And I'm sick of it.

I'm done spending my Christmastimes in the closet, which is why I've decided to come out to my mom before I head back to school.

We'll see how this goes.

But no matter what happens, from now on I'll finally be able to decorate my conversations with my mother with all my favorite activities and accomplishments. I'll finally get to show her who am I really am, and what I can be at my very best. Wish me luck!

Merry Christmas everyone, and happy decorating.

1 comment:

  1. Merry Christmas, Jonathan! I hope that you and your mom can have many wonderful conversations about your favorite activities. You're a great person, and soon your mom will be able to see the full extent of that greatness. Best of luck with it all!

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